HAPPY THANKSGIVING

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!  This morning I woke up to an empty house.  My teenager is spending the holidays with her dad and the rest of her family in Memphis and my little one escaped to Mommy Del’s house last night because Mommy Del and Larry let her do just about anything she wants to do and it’s the Holidays! Lol!

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Initially I felt overwhelmed by the silence of my home when I woke up.  It is not often that a single mom doesn’t celebrate the opportunity to have a little alone time. I have been no different over the past couple of months when I find myself without children staring me in the face, asking me fifty questions, talking incessantly, begging me to take them places and trying to climb in the bed with me at night when all I want is a couple of hours of silence.  So, why was this morning different?  Why was I feeling teary eyed and alone. Lying in bed, drinking coffee, I began to explore where these emotions were coming from.  After all, in a couple of hours my house would be full of folks, talking, eating, laughing, and just enjoying one another.  So, why was I feeling blue during this golden opportunity of silence?  Then it hit me, this is the first time in twelve years that I have awakened to a completely empty house on Thanksgiving.  The absence of my family as I have known it, which included a husband that spent all night preparing turkey , brisket and whatever other crazy request we had for our Thanksgiving festivities, was causing this sudden rush of emotion on an otherwise peaceful day.   The absence of the routine that we had come to master because our hectic careers had caused us to cherish the family time that we got during the holidays caused me to feel anxious.  And while I had told myself over the past two weeks that I could single-handedly maintain the routine and traditions that had become a part of me, the reality was I was overwhelmed.

As I lie there working through these feelings it suddenly dawned on me that despite the fact that there would be no fried turkey or brisket on the table, despite the fact that I would be celebrating the holidays as a single mom, I had maintained the one tradition that truly mattered,  the ability to provide an environment filled with love and happiness.  And, while I felt really sad about the death of the routine we created, I was even more excited about my life now with all of its new opportunities and infinite possibilities.

So, today I am thankful for this time of self-reflection.  I believe that the ability to examine and embrace emotions and feelings makes me a better person.  I am thankful for every day that I get up and get a chance to live, truly live.  I am thankful for the woman that I am, and, am becoming.  I am thankful!

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This afternoon my house will be full of people who share one common purpose, to live peacefully and be surrounded by people that simply care.  Isn’t that the true meaning of living a life fulfilled?

And, while the Thanksgiving elves did not deliver Thanksgiving dinner to my home as I wished, my family and friends more than made up for it.  After my trip to the grocery store I had nothing to do to prepare for this wonderful day.  What more could I ask for!

Much Love!

Tonza

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  1. It is truly a blessing that God gave u the opportunity to reflect and get it together. This is the second year that I have don’t it and th first that I will b traveling for Thanksgiving dinner bt I still give thanks! I still made dinner for my kid so wen they come by later this weekend. Count it all a blessing that ur still n ur rite mind and that u still have family around u. Enjoy ur day and thanks for the wonderful readings. Continue to b blessed bc that’s wat u r…..blessed!

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  2. Tonza, I totally understand what your heart is feeling. I’ve have and at times still feel the same way. The tradition we had growing up, then, as we have our own families, and now, as we feel the void now in our lives as life moves on. As I’m sure you already see and feel, is the importance of family in our lives. It’s not the fancy meal on the table that so important but who we are lucky enough to have sitting at that table.

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  3. When we think about THANKSGIVING, most ppl think about food, family, & friends, then as they all come together they begin to think about the blessings that these groups of ppl add to their lives. Thanksgiving is truly about how much do we VALUE the lives we live, the TIME we’ve been giving, & the LOVED ONES we share it with. Many times we overlook those who sincerely love & care for us because of the many distractions that present themselves to us through things. LOVE is the most precious gift ever given, God showed us that by giving us JESUS. Sadly not many know what true love is because they haven’t come into the knowledge of who they are in God. It’s His LOVE that makes us complete, His LOVE that gives us peace, and it’s His LOVE that we should be thankful for everyday & not just on Thanksgiving. The trick of the enemy is to get us to focus on what’s missing & not what’s present.Focusing on what’s missing will always pull a person into an emotional abyss of depression, but focusing on what & who shows sincere LOVE will always strengthen the heart & inspire the mind to move forward. God is LOVE & His LOVE doesn’t do anything but protect & nurture & that’s the most thankful thing we should always find ourselves being thankful for.

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  4. When we think about THANKSGIVING, most ppl think about food, family, & friends, then as they all come together they begin to think about the blessings that these groups of ppl add to their lives. Thanksgiving is truly about how much do we VALUE the lives we live, the TIME we’ve been giving, & the LOVED ONES we share it with. Many times we overlook those who sincerely love & care for us because of the many distractions that present themselves to us through things. LOVE is the most precious gift ever given, God showed us that by giving us JESUS. Sadly not many know what true love is because they haven’t come into the knowledge of who they are in God. It’s His LOVE that makes us complete, His LOVE that gives us peace, and it’s His LOVE that we should be thankful for everyday & not just on Thanksgiving. The trick of the enemy is to get us to focus on what’s missing & not what’s present.Focusing on what’s missing will always pull a person into an emotional abyss of depression, but focusing on what & who shows sincere LOVE will always strengthen the heart & inspire the mind to move forward. God is LOVE & His LOVE doesn’t do anything but protect & nurture & that’s the most thankful thing we should always find ourselves being thankful for.

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